I have a confession: there’s going to be a change around here. After recently going through our permanent pages (the Welcome page, About Us page, etc.) I realized that I have not done with this blog what I intended to do.
My original intentions are still spelled out quite clearly on the Welcome page, as I had learned to do from the many “how to start a blog” blogs out there, but I have failed to produce a single post that conformed to my original intentions.
The reason I started this blog was so that we could have an outlet for confession.
I think I started the blog out to formally. I put too much time into it and I made it into a treasure. When I finished setting everything up, I began writing about others instead of myself. Consequentially, I got off course.
I confess, often the Lord really shows himself spectacular in my life, but it’s usually because I’ve really messed something up, and it’s hard – due to my pride – to confess that failure and give God the glory he deserves for it, but that’s what I started this blog for.
I’m a wreck of a man, but God never leaves me or forsakes me, despite my incompetence. He’s put in me an unquenchable joy in Jesus Christ and he’s placed me at the ends of the earth to preach Christ, and Christ crucified, but I mess up. This blog exists to testify to how God works everything out when I mess up.
The hope in doing this is to inspire YOU to get out there and try. Try to start and lead Bible studies; try to start homeless ministries; try to start orphanages; adoption programs; emergency pregnancy centers; Alcoholics Anonymous meetings; international ministries; or immigrant acclamation services. Prayerfully Try!
I’ve changed the sub-heading of this blog to “Confessions of faith & failure” to convey a sense of realism to radical Christian service – that walking by faith means getting wet, and often very wet, but that getting wet is a good thing. Do you think that after Christ pulled the Apostle Peter back up onto the waves, chiding him for his lack of faith, that Peter regretted getting to walk on the water with Jesus? Perhaps. But he would be forever stuck with the memory of what it feels like to walk on water, upheld by the power of his King! Nevertheless, despite that powerful experience, would Peter mess up? Yes. And not once, but thrice (haha, I got to use ‘thrice’).
The Apostle Peter “wept bitterly” for this, confessed and repented, and eventually became a contributing agent in turning the world upside down for Jesus. Getting wet, walking by faith, does not entail success, but by God’s grace it does entail progress, and progressing towards being made into the image of Christ should be the purpose of our lives everyday!
But first we must put aside our fear of failure, and nothing eradicates fear like familiarity. So, henceforth, I hope to expose you to my greatest blunders, my most fantastic mess ups, and my most devastating failures, for the purpose of demonstrating that God isn’t thwarted by my shortcomings, but glorified in them.
“But he [God] said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.
So, move! Go! Speak up! Standing in line at Wal-Mart? Share the gospel! Arguing with a friend about predestination, start a Bible study! Have a cousin in jail? Start an inmate outreach. You can do it, and be excited about messing up!
One of the most influential quotes I ever read came from a biography I read on the 26th president of the United States of America. Enjoy his insight:
Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure… than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat. – Theodore Roosevelt